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Orphan Sunday

Orphan Sunday

Orphan Sunday The fact this website exists continues to break my heart. It was orphan Sunday at my church again and it reminded me of orphan Sunday last year when I was pursuing foster care and decided to investigate adopting a child. A year later, I have been denied...

Everything is Rubbish in Comparison

Everything is Rubbish in Comparison

Everything is Rubbish in Comparison As I approach the 10-year anniversary of my suicide attempt and felony conviction I have been all the more introspective on the things I have learned through my journey. As I start blogging and talking with more people who can...

Owning My Story

Owning My Story

Owning My Story It was the 1986 super bowl and the Chicago Bears were playing some other team as my family sat down to watch the game in our house in the Chicago area. I was 6 years old and this is the one and only football game that I remember being turned on in my...

Reconcile and Reform Conference

Reconcile and Reform Conference

Reconcile and Reform Conference I cannot remember the last time my batteries felt so recharged! The Reconcile and Reform Conference with The Reformation Project was everything I hoped it would be. I met wonderful people and learned more than I had even expected about...

Dancing in the rain

Dancing in the rain

After 10 years of trying to work on all my other issues before working on my deep fears of dating, my therapist has been increasingly suggesting I am ready to begin addressing my terror of ‘Dating in my 40’s’. I had an appointment with her yesterday and she again...

Loving the Experiences that Shaped Me

Loving the Experiences that Shaped Me

Loving the Experiences that Shaped Me   I never would have imagined I would reach the point in AA where I could truly say that I believe I am one of the lucky ones who gets to admit that I am an alcoholic! I am grateful for the rooms of AA where I find an...

The Moment Beauty Begins

The Moment Beauty Begins

The Moment Beauty Begins   I was singing worship songs at church as my hand closed around the necklace I was wearing. It is a gold cross with a ruby center stone and small diamonds on each point of the cross. Memories flooded over me as it’s significance was felt...

I met a guy

I met a guy

I met a guy when I was in Seattle this summer. It was not so much a meeting of romance, as a meeting of people who randomly end up at the same hotel on business and enjoy chatting with strangers. While not a large group person, I am, undeniably, an extrovert and I...

We Are The Luckiest

We Are The Luckiest

We Are The Luckiest: my experience of reading an amazing book!It is funny the way God drops things upon you in the exact moment you are ready to receive them. I was just introduced, unrelated to anything of my own, to a book and an author with whom I am already in...

Newton’s Third Law of Motion

Newton’s Third Law of Motion

As I have been navigating valleys with people I love, I have been thinking a lot about cause and effect and the appropriate times to intervene and not intervene in others situations. I have been thinking about how hard it is to watch other suffers and how much we seek...